WASTED TIME

The time that I ve wasted is my biggest regret
   Spent in these places I will never forget.
Just sitting and thinking about the things that I ve done
   The crying, the laughing, the hurt and the fun.

Now it s just me and my hard driven guilt
   Behind a wall of emptiness I allowed to be built.
I m trapped in my body, just wanting to run
   Back to my youth with its laughter and fun.

But the chase^{1 is over and there s no place to hide
   Everything is gone, including my pride.
With reality suddenly right in my face
   I m scared, alone and stuck in this place.}

Now memories of the past flash through my head
   And the pain is obvious by the tears that I shed^{2.
I ask myself why and where I went wrong
   I guess I was weak when I had to be strong.}

Living for the drugs and the wings I had grown
   My feelings were lost, afraid to be shown.
As I look at my past it s so easy to see
   The fear that I had, afraid to be me.

I d pretend to be rugged^{3, so fast and so cool
   When actually lost like a blinded old fool.
I m getting too old for this tiresome4 game
   Of acting5 real hard with no sense of shame.}

It s time that I change and get on with my life
   Fulfilling my dreams for a family and wife.
What my future will hold I really don t know
   But the years that I ve wasted are starting to show.

I just live for the day when I ll get a new start
   nd the dreams I still hold deep in my heart.
I hope I can make it, I at least have to try
   Because I m heading toward^{6 death, and I don t want to die.}